I have a confession to make. This is not something that’s easy to admit and I’m holding my breath hoping that someone else out there will be able to relate…that someone else, anyone else, will think, “I totally do that and I’m so glad Jen was the first to admit it”.
So, here it goes…
Regardless of my best intentions, I am terrible at staying connected with people when my life is in a state of chaos. I mean REALLY terrible. As I juggle a bazillion things on my to-do list and adjust their importance on my calendar (day after day…revising, prioritizing, justifying), I often neglect the people I care about the most. These are the times I wish they could climb inside my head and see how often I actually do think of them…but also fear they would run right back out at lightning speed, dodging the insanity that is the “Jen mind”. I would be left exposed…everyone finally knowing that I’m really not on top of things. And, by this, I mean pretty much NOT AT ALL.
But something tells me I’m not completely alone.
As living, breathing human beings in the 21st century, we often wake up overwhelmed and lay our heads down at night wondering how we will get it all done again tomorrow. We are running, jumping, maneuvering, manipulating and just trying to survive. No wonder we forget to stop – I mean REALLY stop – and just breathe. JUST. BREATHE. Just sit and watch children play. Hear their laughter. FEEL their laughter. Look around and notice the details of other people’s lives, of nature, of animals. Disconnect from our phones (I am TERRIBLE at this!) and be in true community with the world around us. Meditate in the middle of the day, no matter where we are, if only for 5 minutes.
Okay, another confession here.
It’s been a long time since I blogged and I feel a sense of peace as I write this. A sort of “diary entry” feeling…relief at just getting this down on paper (aka computer scene). A big sigh. The big “letting go”.
So, I’m placing a personal challenge on myself and inviting you all to join me. Over the course of the next week, whenever a loved one (family member, friend, whatever) pops into my mind, I’m going to pick up the phone and call them. Better yet, if the opportunity arises, I’m going to stop and share a cup of coffee with them…a face-to-face conversation.
We were created to be in community with one another and none of us thrive as islands.
No matter the stress you are feeling – whether it be work or lack thereof, preparing to sell your home or attempting to buy one (in a market with very limited inventory, no doubt!) or a crazy schedule that barely gives you time to enjoy one square meal a day – make a conscious decision to stop. Stop and connect with those you love.
I know what I’ll be doing. I will be connecting with my kids, who are all grown and living their own lives now.
I will tuck my to-do list away and enjoy every single minute of my time with them.
Will you join me?